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Run AwayI've tried to cover it up in the past.  But nothing ever lasts.  I'll say my goodbyes, just this one last time.  You will never even miss me, when I'm gone.  I've pleged my allegience. I've sworn my love.  But this wouldn't be the first time,  I've gone against my word.  I said I would always be there for them.  But look at where I am.  Miles apart, our hearts shatter as one.  The truth never spoken and the blood never spilled.  Afraid of what I could find, I shut it out of mind.  Knowing the future you saw made the choice harder.  Hurting one just to risk it for another.   Run Away
by ~SamiAnnRose
Alive For The MomentThe rain pours outside and I'm left alive.  Praying for something; the change is coming.  We'll beg, we'll cry. We'll scream tonight,  "Nothing can happen now."  We can run away from it all, no one has to know,  How, inside, we've died. But we're still alive.  Breathing and hurting; nothing is working.  To soothe the burn, you have to put down the match.  If you want safety then go home.  With me, nothing is a guarantee except for hurt.   Alive, tonight, we've done nothing wrong.  They can chase us all they desire, we are only guilty if we wish.  What have we done here? Taken li Alive For The Moment
by ~SamiAnnRose
SecretsI'm just a girl.   
I'm a normal one at that.   
I've only wanted to kill myself more times than I can count.   
Every day I wish I could live in a mental institute just so I wouldn't feel so alone.   
I'm scared to sleep, but I do it all the time, because even just one dream of him will bring all the memories back.   
I try to be perfect because I'm afraid not to be.   
Every time I fail, I wish I had someone to blame other than myself.   
I want a therapist but I'm too scared he will give me drugs.   
I'm too scared to drink because I don't want to go down that Secrets
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To My Grandma.when i was 11, i drew a picture of you. i was so proud of it - the crow's feet by your eyes, the smile lines at the edges of lipsticked lips. you shouted and cried and told me not to draw you anymore, that you were old. but you didn't rip it up, you just let it drift from your fingers. you didn't talk to me that whole night and i felt awful.  i never meant to be mean. you were beautiful - from the crows feet, showing a life of smiles, to the stories you told. maybe i drew what i saw, but you were always much more than that.   
do you remember when we would go on the beach? you would bring your friend martha and we'd splash in t To My Grandma.
by ~bizzziecee
The Masochist
by *yuumei
What Do You Do?What do you do  When you fall in love with your best friend  When you know he's the only one out there for you  Who could ever make you happy other than him  And you're lying wide awake at two in the morning  Texting him with your phone  Wondering if he even knows  So what do you do?   
What do you do  When your heart is broken  When you don't know that there's somebody out there  Who feels the same as you do  And you have no idea what it means  To feel love at its best  Letting it caress your shattered heart  So what do you do?   
What do you do  W What Do You Do?
by ~SavvyPsycho
TornMy Heart,  It Cries,  This Beating Thing.  This Strong And Pumping But Bleeding Thing.   
It Wails  At Night,  This Waiting Thing.  This Weeping, Sad, And Dreadful Thing.   
At Dusk,  It Screams,  This Impatient Thing,  For You,  Your Core,  Your Aching Thing.  Your Wrenched And Drenched But Patient Thing   
That Sits  And Pumps  That Idle Thing,  Content, Unspent, Unbridled Thing.   
Your Heart,  So Sweet,  It Waits For Me,  That Wonderful, Loveable, Davey Thing. Torn
by ~JustSing2Me
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Well, I can't spell, but I make up for that withh all the new words I make up.
I love art(obviously) and fashion.
and music is amazing!
My favorite bands are
Green Day
Aiden
AFI
Paramore
Blink-182
William Control
NeverShoutNever
Flyleaf
Joy Divison
Now, there are a lot more, but these are at the top of my list. Because these are the ones who have set the bar higher for a lot of bands and have been great inspiration and who I can best relate. And Joy Divison is on here for those reasons and because they are unlike a lot fo bandss. They arent happy, they are sad, they arent main stream, they are actually a bit more underground than some bands are, and the lead singer commited suicide. Which I can really relate to, but his life has helped to prolong mine. So I am greatful.

I am a huge fan of Raquel Reed, Audrey Kitching,Ali Barone, Hannah Beth, and Clint Catalyst.

I am also a book geek. I love reading.
I have been named President of the Pina Coladas by my stepsister. Dork and Sugar Creme Pie by my friend Syd. Samu by my friends Devin and Allie. I have a ton more nick names so feel free to invent your own:)

I love Kitty Dividers(haha, best Saturday ever.)
Hello Kitty, high heels, sharpies, tutus, Red Bull, uh, *blushes* Matthew Gray Gubler. He is just TOO cute!! (So sad that he shattered his leg, but at least he is doing tons better.) well, I love a ton of other things *coughcough candy coughcough* but my friends are the best! They are all so amazing. I miss them more than anything since I moved from Indiana to Florida. Fake eyelashes. Makeup in general. I dont wear much(just a smudge of eye shadow and a smear of eyeliner) but I love the idea of doing complicated designs with different types, colors, and textures of makeup. Red Bull mixed with ginger ale and blended up strawberries with some ice cubes thrown in is amazing.

I'm Scared Beyond Words.

Fri Dec 18, 2009, 10:15 AM
  • Mood: Scared
  • Listening to: Music
  • Reading: a book.
  • Watching: nothing.
  • Playing: farmville XD
  • Eating: nothing
  • Drinking: red bull
Okay, so sense I need to jut spout pointless matters that are really getting to me right now, I shall write a short one of these.

So yesterday I felt sick all day, I felt like I was coming down with a fever. then I have to do a lot of chores. And I find out something really terrible.

My friend ran away from home.

I dont know where he is. I think he is with Tori, but the cops showed up at her place looking for him. I dont know much since I am a few states away now. But this still really got to me. I felt like puking as soon as Devin told me on IM.

The only comfort with this that I have is that I know he is still somewhere in state. If it was to the point he would go out of state, he would most likely come here to florida since Im here, but he only knows what city I live in, so that doesnt help. I think he would only come here since he never talks about friends out of state, so I think Im the only one.

Put this on other stresss I have and its all downhill from there. I havent been able to talk to Tori. I havent talked to Tristen in over a week and I dont know how to, and I dont know if he would answer the phone if I called or texted him. I dont know who all knows about him. Last night my mom got upset with me and she sounded really anger so I thought she was gonna start yelling at any moment. So when I went into the kitchen right after she talked to me I sat down and cryed for half an hour about everything. I just want it to be tomorrow already. And the worst part about me having cryed:

Nobody noticed. Then I went into my room and cryed for about another five minutes till I had problems breathing. I so I went and asked my mom for her inhaler(sp?) since I dont know where mine is. She asked me what was wrong and I exploded and cryed for another half hour. I told her everything except I didnt tell her that tristen might be at Tori's. I was kinda scared to since I didnt know for sure. So I didnt get to sleep till midnight when I finally could cry anymore. I had cryed for an hour and a half and finally fell asleep. My mo woke me up at six thirty for school asking if I wanted to even go today. I told her no because I didnt think I could focus on anything. I started to cry a little again but couldnt really. I was out of tears I guess. I went back to sleep and got up later with a bad headache.

Ive felt like shit all day. I can believe everything could go wrong around me when everything is supposed to be right. Im supposed to be in Indiana right now. Im supposed to be with my friends, my family. My former home. And Im not there.

And then things are going bad for Daniel too, but Im not going into that. And things are shit right now for Terry. I wish I could do something for these guys. I guess Gary lost his job. Why now? Why is it all wrong now?

On top of it all I had a dream about Codey a few nights ago. But I didnt feel like dying right after which is good. Thats better than normal. And honestly, I care more about Tristen now than I do about Codey. And yeah, Tristen is MIA, but Im not sure if it is that or more. And truthfully, Im scared it could be more. Ive been told he likes me, but he shouldnt. And yeah, I like him, but I shouldnt. Two of my friends are in love with him and one was/is. Not sure which though.

We arent supposed to like each other. Its not how things should be. And yet I feel like thats how they should be. And Im scared to death. Last time I let myself fall in love with someone they broke my heart more times than I can count; and we never even dated.

Well, I need to go. I need to get over my shaking and feeling of emptyness and get back to doing chores. I just cant focus very well right now. Especially ever time I look at the necklace Tristen made me. I just want to cry all over again, but I cant. No more tears.

Happy Holidays
XoXoX
Sami

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  • Current Residence: Florida
  • Interests: everything.
  • Favourite movie: too many.
  • Favourite band or musician: Green DAy, Aiden, AFI, uh, a lot of other bands...
  • Favourite genre of music: At heart, Im a punk type of girl.
  • Favourite artist: too many.
  • Favourite poet or writer: wiL Francis
  • Favourite photographer: Lisa Johnson
  • Favourite style of art: Old fashion paint and canvis
  • Favourite game: Dont really have one..
  • Tools of the Trade: I use a bunch of different things. mainly pencils and cameras.

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~SamiAnnRose Dec 5, 2009, 3:23:36 PM
Aw, they do look cute together!! Thank you for making it for us!

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If you want to sing out, sing out. If you want to eat spaghettios, eat spaghettios. I'll join you. -Brendon Urie

I scraped my knees while I was praying and found a demon in my safest haven. -Paramore; Turn It Off
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~Kai-Uchiha07 Dec 5, 2009, 7:54:53 PM
Sami-channeh? D8 can u get on IM again? :iconpuppydogeyesplz: XD i'm lonleh again D'8 :iconsobplz:

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~SamiAnnRose Dec 5, 2009, 10:34:32 PM
I sent you a message, but you sent a message two and a half hours ago. sorry I wasnt on the computer then..

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If you want to sing out, sing out. If you want to eat spaghettios, eat spaghettios. I'll join you. -Brendon Urie

I scraped my knees while I was praying and found a demon in my safest haven. -Paramore; Turn It Off
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~Kai-Uchiha07 Dec 6, 2009, 8:27:23 AM
oh, that's okay! ^^;
some ppl actually have lives, unlike me XD; lol. don't worry about it! ^3^

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~Kai-Uchiha07 Dec 5, 2009, 4:06:59 PM
awwww ur welcome~! :heart: X3 it was fun, too :3

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~SamiAnnRose Nov 23, 2009, 2:31:49 PM
No Problem

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You look like I did. You resisted just like this. You can't tell me to heal. And, it hurts remembering how it felt to shut down. You can't be too careful anymore. When all that is waiting for you won't come any closer, you've got to reach a little more
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